The Death of my Heart

We all love and are loved
We enjoy happy relationships
And happier memories with someone special to us
But when that special someone leaves us
What is it that happens to us?
Do we hide from everyone?
Do we avoid our friends?
Do we just disappear?
It’s always different from person to person
But when we lost that person
Who we cared so much for
We all feel hurt
We all feel betrayed
We all lose something of ourselves
A small part of us dies
A small part
But that small part that dies
Has such a large effect
Our heart slowly starts to die as well
After so many painful losses
Is our heart even alive anymore?
Do we even still have a heart?
Love is painful
And so is life
Most associate love with
Joy and happiness
Not pain and sorrow
But at the end when one person breaks it off
And the other person still loves them
We feel immense pain and sorrow
We become a walking shell
Breathing
Thinking when we need to
But not really living
Just trying to cope
Trying to survive
Trying to move forward
Our heart is always dying ever so slowly
Every painful loss just makes it worse
And nothing can ever really fill that hole
The one left from the pain
My heart is almost dead
I can see so much happening
But what good does that do me if I have no heart
My life is consumed in pain and suffering and sadness
Every time I try to get away from it
I just end up getting hurt even more
My life is a cruel one
It is always cruel to me
It always hurts me
It want my heart to die
For me to become a shell of who I am now
Or maybe I should say who I was
My heart is dead or almost dead
And there’s almost nothing I can do about it
It hurts
It suffers
And then it dies
My heart has finally died
After so long
It’s dead
After I tried so hard so save it
It lives no more
I am a shell